How Long?... And to What End?

How long will this intense longing encage me?
Dear God, will I ever break free?
I wake up everyday and I try not to think of him
Maybe one day I won't

That is the lie I tell myself
I know this will not escape me
This love is so much bigger than me
I'm eager to learn of its purpose

A one-sided affair brings no comfort to me
It is a curse which leaves me always yearning
Seems so unfulfilling and really quite cruel
I know he is somewhere laughing

But I'm not my ego, I will not hide
Embarrassed but honest til the very end

So strong and so real, though
I'm wishing it wasn't

Tis really not useful
Me loving this way

Perhaps you can help, Lord
Please raise up another

This time make him one who will love me right back
Bestow upon me a true love that makes sense
Instead of scenarios leaving me wounded
Far too often filled with lots of regret

How long will this last?
And tell me, to what end?
Will we both have some common endeavor?

This is sapping my strength
And it's making me weak
Just this once, can I steer my own passion?

Let me not love again
Nothing more than a friend
So my dignity returns in good fashion

The Chain-Snatcher

On the New York City Subway
One weekend afternoon
Alone I sat near the exit
At the end of the subway car

One woman sat across from me
But she was reading a book
The others, not far were unaware
So they didn't bother to look

We stopped at a Harlem station
Not many people boarded
And within a matter of seconds
My countenance was guarded

The doors opened up and
A strange-looking male
Reached into the train
And got hold of my chain

He tried hard to pull it with seconds to spare
But I held on and yelled and no one seemed to care
The doors started closing and he ran away
And my guardian angel had saved the day

This gold chain was thin, one could easily break it
Yet all these years later dear LORD, I still have it
Now it is nearly two whole decades after
That eerie encounter with that old chain-snatcher

I tried telling people that were on the train
They looked over at me like I was insane
But the picture below is the key to explain
Why that man was not able to take my gold chain

Breathe

Venetian blinds closed

Shut off the music

Disconnect the cable box


Unplug the phones

Shut down your laptop

Turn off the lights


Head toward the bed

Remove your shoes

Lay down upon it


Close both your eyes

Relax those muscles

And just breathe...

Breathe strong and long
Breathe tall and wide
Allow your thoughts to flutter away into nothingness
Exhale the stresses of the day

Inhale positive energy and vigor
Envision nothing just allow yourself to feel well
Appreciate the silence and listen
As clarity fills your mind and instructions from heaven flow

Just breathe... and let life be!

Belly of the Beast

I'm in the belly of the beast
The darkness here is obscene
Coals of fire for concrete

Death does not come when you want it
Though you beckon, it tarries
Its music, deafening screams swallowed up in silence

Yea means nay and night removes the daylight
Like resembles hate and
Destruction is encased in dreadful bliss

The memory of love is consumed
In its absence chaos runs rampant
Comfort is found in defeat

I have no voice, no water for tears
Pure agony, my weariness is rest
Pain camouflaged in pleasure

No meat, no drink
Only fire embraces
No childlike visage to brighten the soul

Buried so deeply no vision of earth
The galaxy hides its face from me
There is no sunlight and no song

Rejected

When you don't play the way that he wants you too

Neglected

If you are sincere and open, but he wants you to hide it

Ignored

Yet he'll still keep an eye on you

Insulted

When he feels challenged by you, and clearly does not measure up


Bewildered because you're loving him

And can't understand why he won't love you back

Rejected

Time for changing perspective; 'Cuz YOU want him

But he's not the man GOD elected

Empowered

Those who refuse to settle for love minus excellent treatment

My Purpose

This is no secret, just not for you to know
I feel no need to announce, to prove, nor show

It is no business of yours who God called ME to be
So long as you know (where you reside) if you're where YOU should be
God's purpose for me is HIS own intricate plan
When HE made this decision HE did not consult man

In HIS divine wisdom,
HE planted an incorruptible seed
Before I stepped into my mother's womb
God had already defined me

There really is no need to question
Just observe and you will see
Upon the execution of tasks
Just what HE's made of me

Once time has married eternity, and death is swallowed whole
When this old earth has been reborn, heaven receives her new role
It shall be known all mysteries, at once it will unfold

Behold, the unveiling will make it plain; each plan God manifest
To all God's chosen who overcame each trial, passed every test

In Love with a Stranger

I love a man I do not know
Apart from what he makes me feel
Tis strange I know, but it is truth
My affections toward him are very real...

He is the most beautiful man I have ever laid eyes upon
A gorgeous specimen I long to meet
In my mind I often imagined that
Coming together would be so good, so sweet.

I cannot shake this feeling about him
That he is better than he seems
I want him to be a part of me
Not only in my dreams

He's with me everywhere I go
I cannot escape his influence
There's nothing I wouldn't do to get
A chance to be in his presence

To behold him face to face
Alone in a room where there are no distractions
Just him and I standing eye to eye
Free to explore our passions

The setting is pure with white all around us
Barefooted we stand both scantily clad
Becoming acquainted we hold up our hands barely touching
Electricity so potent it surrounds us

Now stepping in closer he touches my shoulders
Slips into a strong and firm embrace
I step into it wrapping my arms around his back
Pressing gently upon his chest with my face

His scent, my scent, our sweet-smelling union
More powerful than I had hoped we would be
Before our lips shared their first communion
Our souls held a conference and they too, agreed.

Mind Your Own Manners

I applied this earlier to the use of Twitter, but this is applicable in every aspect of life. - ♥

It is not for you to say what one should and one shouldn't
nor is it your appointment to determine what one would or one wouldn't..

Your opinion of what one should share doesn't matter,
be it important topics or idle chatter

It is none of your affair let them say what they will
Best you mind your own conduct, step aside and be still

Never make the mistake of putting yourself in God's space
He alone is the leader, now stay in your place

Take comfort in the fact that it is not up to you
to judge or determine what others should do.

"It behooves every man who values liberty of conscience for himself, to resist invasions of it in the case of others: or their case may, by change of circumstances, become his own."
Thomas Jefferson